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This is a job hunting post 06.01.2020

Monday, January 6th, 2020

So this is a bit of a different blog post. It is a job hunting post. I’m taking a different approach as if I look at anymore job sites I think I might go mad. So here it is my approach.

First a little introduction to who I am… I’m 30 years old and I live in Oxfordshire with my partner in our little cottage. We have a stray cat that visits us daily, which we feed and cuddle daily, we have spent the last half of last year building an office in our garden which I am currently writing this from. We are a creative pair, my partner works hard as a web developer and I am a freelance illustrator looking for my next step. I graduated with a graphic design degree from a London university 7 years ago and have since worked in the food industry dabbling in marketing and of course illustration.

The independent coffee house I have worked in for the past 11 years, I have helped build from the ground up becoming a loyal member of the team. Not only running the shop day to day but also creating content for social media accounts and growing our following to 450+ followers in just over a year. I have designed leaflets and posters and other advertising material to promote events, poetry readings, film nights and student evenings. This independent business is at the centre of it’s local community, striving to be a place where people come together and can build friendships with each other and the staff too!

Aside to this I have always been drawing in the background, working for clients on a commission basis, creating bespoke one off pieces of artwork. I have doodled on shoes, created many pet portraits and even designed tattoos. I have attended craft fairs to sell my work, using my years of customer service experience to my advantage. Each piece of my work that I sell comes from the heart so I like to create a memorable rapport with the customer. Last year I collaborated with Brighton based sustainable clothing company, Lucy & Yak, designing a t-shirt line alongside other budding illustrators. I like to think I can put my hand to drawing anything, I have a varied skill set not only where illustration is concerned but also in the skills I have learnt from my day jobs.

I am a kind, hardworking individual with a varied skill set. Creativity always at the heart of what I do. I love working with my hands. Working with food, I seem to have natural abilities in the kitchen. I work quickly and don’t lose my head in high pressured situations. I pride myself on how I like to look after people, ensuring others are comfortable and cared for is part of my nature. I like problem solving, using my creative mindset to adapt myself to situations and ideas. I love creating content for marketing purposes, for myself as an illustrator and in my day job too. I am not just an artist, I am a creator, an excellent communicator and an ideas person, constantly thinking.

Whatever I go onto next I feel like I am at the right stage of my life to take on a new challenge using all that I have learnt so far in my working life to progress in a career I can be proud of.

So for the employers out there looking for your next creative hire, look no further.

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September 24.09.2019

Tuesday, September 24th, 2019

So we are in September, how did that happen?! This year, like every year I suppose, is speeding by way too quickly. Mid September I finished my online illustration course and to be honest I have felt at a bit of a loss since then, a bit like when you finish a really good TV series and you don’t know what to do with your life afterwards. Sit and stare into space? Never! You find another TV series to gorge yourself on!

I won’t be starting another course, not for quite a while! But I wanted to talk a bit about how it has enriched my creative mind. It has made me think about how I approach each drawing, and to consider using different techniques and mediums for my artwork. Not to be afraid to make a mess, that is what I have learnt.

I have always thought every drawing had to be perfect, perfect enough to share with the world, but I have since realised this is not the case. Not every drawing I create is going to be perfect and that’s okay.

I really enjoyed sitting down at my desk once a week for a couple of hours, sharing my work with the other students learning from each other and discussing our insecurities. It was refreshing to hear others struggling with the same things that I often find myself antagonising over. The tutor was encouraging, with positive comments. There would be a mini lecture within each lesson after we had shared our work, which I found myself getting lost in. It was a real chance to be completely absorbed into a world that I want to be a part of. It was really nice to focus my attention on what was being taught without any distractions. It was also really nice to be learning again, and about something I was actually interested in.

I didn’t much like the work I produced for some of the weeks but I think that was the point. It was experimental, a chance to try new styles or mediums without any negative judgement. It was a chance to let go and see what I could create.

My dad always mentions a quote, “Always draw with purpose” I can’t for the life of me remember where the quote comes from, but I always think of it. Whatever your purpose for drawing, whether it be relaxation, for yourself or for others. As long as you do it with some purpose you’re already winning.

Thanks for reading.


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Catching up 20.08.2019

Tuesday, August 20th, 2019

A year ago today we had my Nan’s celebration of life (or funeral) cannot believe that was a year ago. There is not a day that goes by when I don’t think of her. She always liked to get up early, so when I am speeding along in my car at 7am, late for work, with the sun coming up over the hills I always think of her. I now enjoy every sunrise with her.  So much has happened, when you really think about it, looking back on the year I feel like I have grown so much as a person and my perception on life has changed forever. I don’t worry about the little things as much anymore, and neither should you.

Sometimes my brain gets the better of me and I find myself getting upset over my pooch belly or the fact that my car has a massive dent in it (thanks to Warburton’s lorry bastard!) so then I have to bring myself back down to earth and realise that those things don’t really matter. I did a drawing recently, I had the idea a few weeks ago. “In the end the pricks don’t matter” with a cheeky cactus next to the text. It’s true isn’t it? Those people that bring you down or make you feel worthless, yeah it hurts at the time but at the end of it all you probably won’t even remember them. Focus on what is important, what is really important in life. Family, friends, partners. These people are the ones that will get you through. They are the ones that make life worth living.

Enrich your life with other things. I am just learning this. Read a book, watch a series (Stranger Things is top notch) read articles on subjects you want to find out more about. Get up mega early and watch the sun rise (not always possible I know…) have a laugh with family, make memories. I am trying to teach myself that if I never find success in my career then that’s okay, there is so much more to life that can fill your heart. Soak it up.

I just had my first lesson for an online illustration course and I have to say, it was brilliant. I have been looking for a short course to do for a while, after a bit of searching I found this one with Central Saint Martins University. I have been looking for a way to expand my skills with drawing and painting, yeah I could draw everyday in the hope I will develop my style but what I felt I could really do with was someone teaching me some new tricks. I didn’t try very hard at uni, well I did try but I could have done way better. Worked harder. I didn’t really think of it then but age is a great thing. It makes you realise certain things about your journey.

It’s only the first lesson but I have a really good feeling about this course. I want to push myself, I can’t remember the last time I challenged myself. It’s a good feeling. I feel like a sponge, ready to absorb all this new information.

Nowadays I feel like there is a lot of pressure to be successful career wise. I’m not sure if it’s who I surround myself with day to day, what influences me on social media or just the changing times but I feel like there is this pressure to go to university and push yourself everyday to develop a successful career and if you haven’t done that then you’ve failed. I get upset by the fact that I think I have not been that successful in my work life. Now in my thirties and still not quite sure where my career is going. I know what I would love to be doing but it’s just the process of getting there. No one tells you what you are meant to do, creative routes are known for their lack of direction and I find myself reading articles on how others found success by just falling into the right job.

I am a constant work in progress but then again aren’t we all?

I’m looking forward to seeing what this course has to offer and how I hope it will help me to develop my style of drawing. I’ve felt a bit stuck recently, creatively speaking so I am hoping in doing this course it will push me to step out of my comfort zone and try working things from a different angle. I feel like it has given me a bit of purpose.

Thanks for reading.

Look out for more posts about my journey over the next four weeks.


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Oh life 14.09.2018

Friday, September 14th, 2018

I am midway through doing my makeup on this Friday morning. Hair wet, old California baggy jumper on (looking on fleek) but I couldn’t wait any longer to put what has been buzzing about in my brain for a few weeks into words.

This next bit will be hard to write. Shouldn’t have started my makeup yet… Here goes.

On the 22nd of July 2018 my lovely, beautiful Grandma passed away in her bed surrounded by her three loving daughters, my dad and my uncles. She left this world surrounded by love. And my god she was well loved. She is still loved.

Okay that was the hard bit to write. I think.

I still cannot believe she is not with us anymore. I have thought of her everyday since. She is constantly in my mind. Her warm face. Her super soft hands holding mine. Her warm lavender and pink cardigans and her wonderful body shop white musk smell (a body mist my sister would always buy her for birthdays) Gosh I miss that smell.

Emotion is such a huge part of life. It is how we connect with others. Sometimes it is uncontrollable. Sometimes people have trouble expressing it. I have no trouble. I cry at literally everything.

My Grandma’s funeral was an emotionally draining day. I still feel drained from it even now. Correction it was a ‘Celebration of life’. Her life. That sounds more uplifting doesn’t it? What a life she had. A long life filled with years surrounded by family, knitting and love. I spoke at her celebration of life. It felt right to. I would have regretted not saying how much of an impact she had on my life. Through tears and several pauses of not physically being able to get the words out, I managed to read the letter I had written to her. I think it is the one public speaking occasion where you are allowed to be a blubbering mess and not really look at anyone. I did it for her.

Death is devastating. Something we cannot control and that is inevitable for all of us. Sorry that sounded very morbid… but it is isn’t it? I have had a lot of thoughts recently about life and how preciously short it can be. How we can be here one day and gone the next. Just like that. My Nan was a part of our weekly lives. We would have endless meet ups at her little flat and eventually at the home she was welcomed into. I wouldn’t have done anything differently and I am so honoured to have known this strong, independent woman. To now not have that connection with her is upsetting to say the least.

My hair is currently air drying into a bush. Nan would not be impressed! Must apply makeup and sort out the birds nest on my head before I continue…

**Time passes**

Okay…hair and makeup done. Where was I…

So I wanted to write this post about life. Its a funny thing. That is what has been buzzing around my head of recent. How strange life is. How we are here, how we live, how we die. If we were to really think about all of it I think our minds would explode. My mind keeps going to a place. A place where I don’t really want it to go. I keep thinking of my Nan just before she died. What she would have seen, how she would have felt. At peace? I hope that was part of how she felt. My Mum and Aunties had placed a photo of my Grandad and Nanny in front of her so she could look at him. I can’t imagine it. That final release of life. That is such a huge moment. As huge as it is to enter this world. It all leads up to that moment. Everything is let go of and yet remembered and held on to. Loved ones, memories. That is life. That is what is important. How you live it, what sort of person you grow into, who you surround yourself with. This is what will fill your heart.

I have begun to appreciate beautiful sunrises and sunsets. I always think skies with huge stormy clouds and bright orange and yellow sun beams can look very God-like. I am mostly in my car speeding along when I am looking at these sunrises, heading to work at stupid o’clock in the morning. Aretha Franklin blearing out from my speakers and the cold mist hanging over the rolling hills near my house, the warm glow of the sun greets me most mornings and makes me think of my Nan. Hoping that she is witnessing these beautiful views from wherever she is. I think how lucky I am to be in the position I am in. I don’t have a lot of money (no surprise there being an artist!) but the love that surrounds me from the people I have in my life means much more to me than I could ever put into words. I cannot stress enough the importance of seeing people that are important to you. Or telling them that you love them. This isn’t going to last forever. So why wouldn’t you say it.

My attitude towards life has changed so much in the past few years. I totally get the fact we are all on our own journey and we are not going at too slower pace of too faster pace. We are going at our own pace, and if that makes you happy then my god you should keep doing what you are doing. I know life can be no plain sailing, I don’t think it ever is for anyone. We all face battles, some are luckier than others. How you deal with those battles can shape who you are and how you will be remembered. I could have a lot of money and be in a well paid job but I might not be who I am as a person now. I am proud of who I am and how I approach life. It is my approach and it might not be the same as yours or others but it works for me and I can actually say (on the whole excluding some emotional moments!) I am happy. I am alive and living life as best I know how.

I feel I have said a lot in this post. The idea for it has been creating thoughts in my head of what I could say for a couple of months and I haven’t felt ready to type it out or write it down until now. I will probably go away from this and realise I have left something out or forgotten something about my Nan I have wanted to say so may be adding more to it later. But at this moment in time I am glad to have shared these thoughts with you and I hope you can take something away from these words. (If you are still reading thank you for sticking with me!) I want these posts to be about subjects I really care about and think a lot about, as I do think an awful lot!

So I will end this post by raising my well loved ‘moo’ mug full of tea and saying ‘Cheers everybody’ as my lovely Nan always used to do. This is it. This is life. So we better start living it.

Thanks for reading x


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